Wow, I had no idea so many nice people would respond. Thank you so much guys. A lot of comments helped me to look at things from a different perspective. I'll probably always feel a little guilty for the way she went, and I truly hope she didn't possess the pain receptors to feel it, but I feel much better. I've even been browsing for some tarantulas and regal jumping spiders for sale online lately . Any suggestions on good places to order arachnids from?